... And I hate being at ground zero for dealing with the demanding attention-seekers who feel the louder they are the faster they get what they want. The reason I love medicine has a lot to do with the culmination of experiences I've had. I'm so afraid he will see me as weak and not the person he knows at all, even though he has always said he loves me for who I am, not what I do. Saving a Person From Stroke with a Needle: DEBUNKED December 24th, 2017. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. So, to answer your question, I regret having such a poor imagination. Read more. On the other hand, my fiance is always supportive. I chose this profession for several reasons: I have been practicing actively for 10 years. My friend says he is going to do rural/underserved medicine, specifically to be part of a community. They say "we will love you no matter what you do, but you should be strong and keep on trying.". If they knew the things I was thinking about doing, they would be shocked, disappointed, and disgusted. Share the burden - as you're training, especially as an F1, there's actually a lot of people employed to support you - CS/ES obviously, but also your programme director, post grad team. Most of the "successful" doctors in the community are arrogant bullshit artists who viciously attack other doctors to make themselves look better to administrators. I went to one of the best nursing schools in the country and I had a lot of very inspirational professors who made me feel that nursing was something more than it actually is. So I'm in fifth year of residency, I figure if I'm gonna burn out it will be now. You have to work as a team with other doctors, nurses, and support staff, particularly if you're working in a hospital. I am expected to put away everything of myself to care for people who have fewer things than I to deal with. And nobody gives a crap cuz it's such a privilege. I have doubted myself multiple times and researched things again. Specifically, a 2019 case study published in the journal JAMA Internal Medicine found that mortality rates are lower in U.S. counties with more primary care providers. I have approached the subject of changing professions with friends and family, and I get encouragement ("you are just having a bad day") and disappointed looks and statements. The doctor fucked up and didn't secure the clamp on the artery, it then fell of hours after her surgery. I don't have any clue what to do after this. Currently, the salaries provided by the hospital are really good because the facility fees we bring in. I think physicians from the 60s-80s/90s had unrivaled job security, unrivaled levels of self-employment, no people governing what we should be doing because we were the experts, no people thinking our income should be lower, no one disrespecting us because of pre-conceived notions. Being a doctor is not a one-woman show. I quit for around 10 years. I never have been able to. The ANA is a joke and so out of touch 4. I used to. I am expected to spend the time listening, then relive it all when documenting the visit. People saw their physician in the same light as their neighborhood police officer, store owner, car dealer etc. Don't be a doctor. My documentation takes twice as long as anyone else. I eventually decided not to have the operation, and buried myself even deeper in studies that showed that being overweight was not really harmful. 2. I hate reddit so much even though I go on it every day for news. Most times, my actions were correct (because I researched before I did them as well!). The site may not work properly if you don't, If you do not update your browser, we suggest you visit, Press J to jump to the feed. Share Tweet. Because the clamp fell off, she bled internally so much to where none went to her heart, so she coded 3x. 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